You were the heart of me, can't believe you let it break.

Was her name running threw your mind when you said you loved me?
Did her face show up when you said you cared?

I don't know what I have to do for you to notice me, but I'm not trying anymore. Everyone was right about you, everyone. They told me that you'd do this, but I didn't listen because it was you. You who loves me so much. You who makes me smile so big. You who fucked me over one to many times. You. I've cried over you so much, it's retarded. I don't know why I'm so infatuated with you, but I'm done with every part of you. I cried my last time for you, I've said my last I love you. I'm not doing this shit anymore. Thank you so much for asking for my heart, taking it throwing it on the ground stomping on it and then doing the shit all over again. Fuck you. How fucked up is it to use your 'best friend'? Like really, you know how I felt about you, you know I would have done anything for you. Why would you make me think that something was going to happen? What the fuck is wrong with you? Just because you've been hurt by people doesn't mean you can hurt me. I'm the one who picked your sorry ass up every time you fell the fuck down. I'm the one who listened to you talk about being happy with someone else for the longest time. I fuckin' did all the shit you claim to do for her. You know what, I'm not even mad at you. I'm livid with myself, how can I be so stupid as to actually think that you changed? I'm so fuckin' stupid. Gawd, I can't believe I trusted you. I can't believe that for one second I believed what you said. I really don't know how I became so stupid, but I'm not anymore. I've got all the dick I need and I certainly don't need yours. You are nothing to me.

Eric, my sights are all on you now.
**Wish me luck?