I'm venting my feelings.

"We're stuck in a whole filled with our fate.

I know we're gunna die, I just can't wait."

I'm actually going to start writing blogs again. They help me vent, a lot. Today started out as a day like any other. I came to school, smelt every boy in my cult and was happy for most of the day. Then Alicia tells me news that brings me down to a new low, since Terry. I cried, she held me. She is my best friend. I'm a total bitch during American Literature and Human Behavior. **Sorry to the people in there. I skipped out 14th mod, with my girlfriends, Jakob and Eric. Brittani, Jake and Eric went to his van, me and Kennedy talked. I told her my issues and how badly I needed a smoke, she held me while I cried. She is also my best friend. I needed my Johnnie by this time, so I called. He couldn't exit, 'twas sad. I found a death stick and light that shit up quick. Johnnie came, along with Jasmine and Alicia. For the last time tonight I started to tear up, Johnnie soothes my soul. He is my best friend. I smoke some more with Alicia and Jasmine. Eric had returned by this time, he missed his detention, what a bad ass right? But my dad called and I had to go over to the school again. I held Eric's hand, surprisingly I forgot all about my troubles. He's got an amazing smile. My dad showed up and I had to give him his jacket back, with my phone in it's pocket. Damn my stoner memory. So no phone tonight. Oh well, totally worth it. I'm home now and for some reason, on the way home I kept hoping me and my dad would hit somebody is his big ass truck. It would be amusing and probably make my day. No matter how hard I try I can't help but think there's something wrong with me. I just wanna know what's not good enough. Someone tell me, so it doesn't effect anything else in my life, I can't change it if I don't know what it is. It's driving me crazy and I have to know. Tell me why I'm never good enough? I realize this is a little emo and I'd really like it if you didn't judge. I had a bad day and this is my blog so I can be emo all I want too.