The Devil

"I'm frustrated,

I can't believe you aren't the one."

**Bullet For My Valentine<3

I'm probably going to be jumping around a lot with this blog, my apologizes. First order of business, I'm grounded until the end of November 2nd, I know lame sauce right? I don't really feel like explaining why, but you should already know. Second order, I'm in a fantastic mood today. No joke, I'm high on life right now. I've got cancer sticks and I'm ready to fuck up my lungs. News on boys is the next topic, I guess. Hmm, what to say. I don't think Eric likes me, which makes me sad but then again I'm not too sad because I just don't care anymore. I really do like this kid, but if he doesn't like me there's really nothing I can do. Time to move on? I don't know yet. There's a 1% chance I've got a shot with him, I think I'll keep trying until that 1 hits 0. I think I had a chance with him, but I was so wrapped up on Jakob that I didn't think to be happy with someone else, ha. Fail on my part. Hmm, I would ask him, but he doesn't have email and there's no way I'm going to be rejected in person. Not cool. Third order of business are my boys(: They're amazing, I love them so much! Fourth order is me and Brittani are getting married! Yes, I love her we shall wed soon :D Happy dance? I think yes. Me and Matthew are talking, I don't know what to do. I don't wanna get in over my head with his kid. I'm like seriously terrified of getting hurt by him again. He's done the most damage, whether I want to admit it or not. This is hard. I'm done for now.