I was wrong.

I was soo wrong. What the fuck is wrong with me? Why did I even agree to this. I know who I am, I know how to make myself happy, this is not the way. Gawd, I totally set myself up for heartbreak here. I know how he is with other girls, I've seen the way he acts. He's not going to change for me, I'm no different. He's going to get bored and drop me like the nothingness I am. Fuck, I'm so stupid. I honestly don't know what I thought it would ever work. Either way this is going to end bad, I'm going to chicken out not wanting to be left in the dust. End result we aren't friends. I stick with my choice, get heart broken and cry lots and lots. End result we aren't friends. Either way, I'm screwed beyond all reasonable doubt. I dunno what to do, I'm stuck. I don't want him mad at me. sdfgfvcfghh. What do I do?