Is there anyway to make these private?

If so I want too. I'm just in that kinda mood. I keep typing things and then deleting them. I dunno why, but today I just hate myself. I can't figure out the right words to explain it. I hates it. It's my stupid brain not wanting to function the way I want it too. I don't understand the ethics in making people different skin colors. I really don't, whatever made "us" is a fuckin' douche who needs to die. And whose ever idea it was the give "us" emotions was an idiot. No one wants to feel love, no one wants to feel pain or hate. Nobody actually wants that. Wanna know why? Because it's all bullshit, all of it. People just end up getting shot down or hurt. Like what the fuck, why would "we" allow our selves to feel like that? The good days are never worth the bad days, no matter what people fuckin' tell you. Love is not worth the pain, and hate is just a worthless emotion people use as an excuse to be fuckin' idiots. I understand that you hate me and everything that I am, you don't have to tell me every time you see me. You don't have to point it out in the hallways. You don't have to snicker with your friends about it. I get that you're an immature asshole who doesn't have feelings. I understand that it makes you "cool" to hate people who might actually care about you. I really truly understand now. I was born this way, do you honestly think that I would go threw this everyday if I had a choose? I can't fix the way I look, I can't magically be what you want me to be, I swear if I could I would. But dude, I can't. This is who I am. I dunno what's makes you think there's something wrong with me but it makes me think there's something wrong with me. There's nothing I can do about what I look like. I wish there was just one thing, but there's not. You know how to bring me to my knees. I'm never going to get over this, I dunno how to. What makes you so much better then me? I truly want to know, I dunno anymore. Maybe I was meant to never fit in.

-I'll forever be, the person I never wanted to see.